I'm falling into this, in dreams we run away

so yesterday was pretty lame..........i ended up going over to the pike house for a bit to chill and watch a movie.......and of course that can't be done without alcohol. I didnt really want to drink because I feel like i've been doing that a lot lately and I think there are more important things in life.........but nevertheless I did....and I drank vodka.....and vodka makes me an angry person......then i got some news that would've pissed me off even if i HADNT been drinking.......hence last night's blog post lol

I don't understand people. There are few things that Iactually take pride in as a human being, but one of them is my uncanny ability to be honest.......I've explained why I do this in previous posts. Anywho, I refuse to with-hold information from anybody, and I feel that sometimes that gets me in trouble because I am "too honest." Do we really live in a world where we'd prefer to live lies? That we'd rather find comfort in something fake then face a reality that we have to work at?

Welcome to the reason behind EVERY failed relationship......and I feel like im headed there again.....one of my exs is trying to come back into my life and I would really prefer if that didn't happen......we aren't right for each other, and im more than OK with that.....but at the same time I have this desire to be in a committed relationship. So here a I am, buzed, angry, and dealing with this internal struggle of what to do.

Thankfully, the answer was obvious when I woke up this morning though........she left my life a while ago, and she isnt allowed back in as anything more than a friend. I think I deserve better.

"Today will be a day filled with uplifting music so I can get back to enjoying this life I've been given.......

Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing We're just one big family And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more It cannot wait I'm sure There's no need to complicate Our time is short This is our fate, I'm yours"


Peace and love.....but mostly love

Currently Listn'n: Daughtry: "What About Now"